So many questions. So many hours on my knees pleading to the Lord for direction. I don't necessarily want this burden to be lifted, but I would like some (ok a lot) of guidance through it. I am at my wits end of how to talk to my kids or teach my kids.
What's all this stemming from? A few things, but today in particular a phone call from the school principal. I don't know if you have ever received a call or not, but no parent likes to hear the principal tell you that your child has made some seriously BAD choices at school. Choices that don't only affect them but others as well.
Oh that's another thing I need to learn to convey to my kids is that their choices (or consequences) don't only affect them but others as well.
I digress. The call from the principal through me for a loop, didn't see it coming, didn't have the signs at home to know something was coming. Or maybe I did have the signs, but was hiding my head. Oh I don't know.
Do you ever wonder if other parents worry as much about their kids as you do about your own? I wonder if non-lds parents care about their kids choices and the effects of them. This is no way of a preachy post or a post saying that I am doing it right - far from it. Instead a post of complete and utter frustration. I was frustrated with my kids at first about the call, but then ultimately frustrated with ME. Why can't I get this right? Clearly I am not teaching in a way for my kids to understand the importance of choices and consequences.
My kids are such a blessing to me in my life. At one point in my life I never thought I would be able to have children, let alone 4 beautiful spirits. Now I have them, and a huge responsibility to teach them so they too can make it back to live with our Heavenly Father - a responsibility that scares me to death.
2 comments:
Oh, sister. I love this post. And yes, I've received that phone call. In fact, the school nurse had my phone number memorized (ouch). And the school has a special, annoying ringtone that scared the wits out of me. I can tell right away what kind of phone call this will be from the first words a teacher/principle/nurse. If he or she says, "Hello Mrs. Welker..." I brace myself, because it's going to be bad. If she immediately says, "Don't worry. Nothing's happened..." I can breathe easy. Unfortunately, I get the first kind of phone calls more often than the last.
The fact that you are worrying about what kind of mother you are, PROVES that you are a good mother. And the fact that you spend so much time on your knees is further proof that you are an EXCELLENT mother. I think the Lord let's us suffer and worry about our kids just so that we can get an insight into how He feels. Hang in there. Love you!
I love this post! I feel this way all the time. i worry about EVERYTHING! I hope you are feeling better now. Just remember your prayers are heard and Heavenly Father loves your kids even more than you do.
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