My heart is full

For the past few days my heart has been so full. My emotions on the surface, and the spirit's guidance so strong. I am so overwhelmed with the feelings that I am having, I have to write them down. My love for Jesus Christ is so real. I am so grateful for his perfect example and for his atoning sacrifice. That he did it all for me (and yes for you too). For the past few fast Sundays I had the feeling that I should stand and share my testimony but have ignored the prompting. Because of that ignorance I am overwhelmed with these feelings. I feel the love that Heavenly Father has for me. I feel the love from him that I know I am a daughter of God. I can count on one hand that I have had this strong of feelings of the spirit and feelings of love from Heavenly Father that I know I need to express my gratitude for them. I need to share my love for the His gospel of truth. For my Savior Jesus Christ and all that he has done for me. The very thought that Jesus has felt/dealt with everything that I am/each one of us is going through or has gone through is amazing to me. He went to the lowest of lows to feel alone, depressed, and pain.

We had a lesson in gospel doctrine on Jesus Christ and his love for us. How can we know. The teacher went on to give examples of the things that Jesus experienced and how they relate to us. He pointed out that Jesus even felt the rejection of a parent when his father had to leave him while on the cross. In my mind I was thinking "yea but he never felt child birth". Then my thought was quickly filled with "did he not bleed from every pore of his body". Um yea I would say that is child birth and then some. Truth be told, I didn't even experience child birth thanks to modern day medicine called the epidural. I am digressing for a minute, the gratitude that I am feeling is overwhelming on all that Jesus Christ did for me so that I would be able to over come sin and live with him again. That fact that I can over come sin and be better makes my heart so full.

My heart has been so full of the love that I have for my children. I don't think that I have felt this strong of a love or maybe acknowledged it as when Emmett became apart of our family. It truly is a blessing and a miracle the children we have in our lives. I have never loved so deeply and never wanted to be a better person and example then having my children. I want my children to know who I am. I want my children to know that I love the Lord. I want my children to know that I love them unconditionally. Though times may get tough and decisions may be made that aren't to my liking, know that I am their mother who loves them no matter what. This I have learned from my own experience with my parents and from the love that I feel from Heavenly Father as I have made decisions that weren't to His liking.

I don't know where I am going with us other than I am filled with love and compassion this day and needed to share it so my heart doesn't explode. I love the Lord. I love my husband and children. I especially love my life.

To those of us still waiting for the healer to come - will he take my hand, will he carry me away in these lonely time will he carry me away. And to those of still waiting for the healer of our wounds, it's not hopeless it's just Friday but Sunday's coming soon.